Thoughts on Growing Older

When did I get so old?

I’m seriously having a bit of a crisis here.

When I was fresh out of college, my best friend Lori and I took an amazing trip to Europe that I still remember clear as day. We met some amazing friends on that trip, friends who were in the same boat as us: fresh out of college, excited to explore, and not quite sure what life had in store for us.

Fast forward about a bajillion years to today, and I just found out one of those friends just got married. I don’t know why this hit me so hard, because he’s not the first out of that group to get married. And it’s not even the fact that he got married that bothers me (If you’re reading this Jessie, Congrats friend!!), it’s the fact that it makes me feel really, really old.

Stalking him on facebook Looking at the pictures, it suddenly hit me that that trip was not just yesterday. It was a long freaking time ago. I look like a baby in our pictures from that trip, and although I don’t feel that much older, pictures of me now tell a much different story (Hello, wrinkle face!).

Ok ok. I know I’m not that wrinkly. But it’s like I just woke up one day and had crow’s feet.. and WTF is that all about.

And the thing is, everyone lately is getting married (or divorced) or having babies. I really sometimes feel like I’m the last person on this earth who isn’t married or with child (not that there’s anything wrong with that!) But it’s everywhere I turn: facebook, twitter, bumping into old friends on the street.  And the strangest part about it is that it’s not weird. I’m now at the age where it’s normal to be surrounded by all that. I’m just wondering when that happened?

I don’t feel that much older than I was when I graduated from college. Although my random aches and pains may tell you otherwise, it doesn’t seem possible that we’re closing in on a decade since I was showing up to NU hockey games in body paint with a flask in my purse (Sorry, Mom!) Sure, I guess I’m a little bit wiser, and I know I’ve been successful, but I really still feel like a young kid who just happens to have a pretty cool job.

Side note: I was at a friends house recently, and we were talking about Eye Creams.  EYE CREAMS. She even showed me hers. Seriously? When did I get so old.

I don’t even really know what my point is in writing this. I guess I’m just wondering if others out there feel the same way? Just like some people are “old souls”, I think I’m a “young soul”. I’m pretty sure my grandmother still feels like she’s 25 deep down inside, so maybe it’s in my genes. All I know is, acting your age is totally overrated. The other day, one of my athletes told me that I was what would happen if a 13 year old graduated from an athletic training program. Now, we all know how I feel about 13 year olds (ick), but I’ll take it. If I’m 13 now, does that mean I’ll still pretty much be in my 20s when I’m close to retirement age? Sounds good to me!

Do you feel older or younger than your biological age? Have you ever been told you’re an “old soul”? If you could stay one age forever, what would it be?

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15 thoughts on “Thoughts on Growing Older

  1. Sometimes I feel like I’m older, and sometimes I feel like I’m still a kid again. I think I just want the best of both worlds haha
    I’ve definitely had some freak outs already, especially when I shoot weddings where the couples are like my age. But what I’ve started to realize though is that getting older is something we can’t control, in fact, we’re lucky to have the chance to grow old (think of all the people who don’t!). Age is just a number and wrinkles mean you’ve smiled a lot in your life : )

  2. You are not alone! Eye creams, grey hairs, weddings, and babies! I’m surrounded by them. Don’t get me wrong… it’s not that I don’t want them myself (minus the wrinkles and grey hairs) but my life just hasn’t worked out that way yet. My body tells me I’m 28 but my brain and heart are still screaming that I’m too young to have it all together yet. Not sure which is right.

  3. Oh the growing up! I am 24 and work with mostly 40+ people and they love to make the comments about oh you weren’t even alive when … insert something obscure… it drives me nuts!! In the non work world every one I know is getting married, having babies, yada yada, wtffff. I have been with my bf for 2 1/2 years and we have known each other for 12 years, YET people who we saw meet for the first time are married already. I’m not ready for that! I’m 24 for goodness sakes! I think we all just need to take our time because we are all different. Keep a young soul and you will be golden for life!

  4. I think I’m the opposite of you 😉 I was the first of my friends to get married, and 2.5 years later I’m still the only one – I don’t think any of them are even CLOSE! A lot of people I meet assume I’m older than I actually am. Not because I look old I’m assured (phew!), but because of how I act (boring, haha) and what I’ve done with my life since university (two big moves, two big career changes). I basically raised myself, so I’ve always been very mature. Going to Ibiza this past summer was a great reminder that I am in fact 23 and should still be partying!

    • Tara I can’t believe you’re only 23!! I guess I never thought about how old you are, but your blog posts are so mature, I never would have guessed that you were under 25! You have certainly done an incredible amount for such a young age, I guess you’re just a wise old soul in a young, Ibiza partying body 🙂

  5. Oh my goodness I know what you mean here! I look around campus and see all the baby-faced frosh and I can’t believe that was me 6 years ago! I swear I’m still 18.

    I’ve always been pretty mature for my age because my parents raised me to be really independent. And even at 7 years old I always already concerned about getting good grades to get into university haha!

  6. I had a minor crisis the other day looking back on some of my college photos… I realized that I am starting to look more like an adult woman and less like a young adult/kid. Not that I look old now, just not as young as I did – obviously because I’m not.

  7. Seeing Jessie’s wedding photos crushed me as well. I have no idea when everyone grew up but I feel like we are stuck on the non-married, non-kid and loving boat and that we are the only sane ones out there. Tehehe sorry friends. But seriously–why am I absolutely aghast when I hear someone is pregnant. Why do I think “geeze, way to get pregnant super young!” Um hi Lori, you are 30. THIRTY. OK I am ranting. Anyway, I feel your pain 110%

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